I have desperately needed to write in my journal but it has been so long the thought of it already makes my hand cramp so I'm just going to blog it instead. It is long and boring so feel free to skip over it.
The last time I wrote in my journal was the week after Addie was born and boy has life changed since then. After we got her home from the NICU she was the perfect little angel baby for a whole week, since then life has been a little rocky, or a lot rocky actually. It started so fast and randomly, one day she just would not stop crying all day. By the evening I was getting worried that something was wrong so I called the doctor's office and they said to come in and have her get checked out. The doctor thought that acid reflux was the problem so he gave her some medicine for that. A week went by and there was some slight improvement some days and others none at all. In the meantime, when Addie wasn't crying she was the cutest little girl. It was/is so hard to see her cry and have done everything I can do for her and not know what else to do. Anyways after being on the medicine for a week she started crying and shrieking a lot like she was in pain so we took her to the doctor again. This time he gave us some gas drops for colic, we were suppose to try those for a week and go back for a follow up appointment. During that week there was a day where Addie refused to eat hardly anything, she would just cry every time you tried to feed her, this made me really worried so back to the doctor we went. This time they gave her a different reflux medicine to try. Finally at our follow up visit the doctor decided that there was nothing medically wrong with Addie, all the crying was just her temperament and she would probably grow out of it around 6 months. After knowing that nothing was really hurting or seriously wrong it has been a lot easier to take care of Addie and not worry about her health.
Since the visits to the doctors office we have had our up and down days. On May 30th Addie rolled over for the first time. I semi think it was a fluke because as soon as I put her on her stomach she flipped so I might have helped a little bit but then again yesterday she rolled over and I think it was for reals this time because she had been on her tummy for several minutes before she decided to fling her head to the side and roll. She also smiles all the time now which is so cute and each smile negates several days of crying so its a good thing she smiles a lot. She hates her swing which was the most expensive sporadic desperation purchase we have ever made, oh well hopefully she will like it later or one of our other kids will. Addie is a constant wiggler, if she is awake she is moving and arching her back. At night we have to wrap her up really tight in a blanket or else she will flail her limbs and wake herself up. We have been trying hard to break her habit but she is definitely like her mother and would rather graze all day than eat big meals. Just recently she has started making eye contact and also watching you or toys that you shake in front of her. She also LOVES swimming in the bath tub (don't worry not real swimming). Trev holds her head and she just wiggles the rest of her body and splashed and kicks like crazy. We give her a bath every night because she loves it so much and she cries when we take her out. We blessed her on June 5th, my parents came from Colorado and Trevin's parents came from Logan. My sister Ashley was there with her husband Clifton, BrockAshleyCallinTinzley were there, so were my friends Amanda, Katie, and Maura and Trevor and Natalie. Lately she has had an extremely hard time at night and doesn't sleep for more than an hour or two if she isn't being held, which usually translates into about 3 or 4 hours of sleep off and on for us most nights. Last night it got so late that Trev and I decided to take shifts as we sometimes resort to when she wont sleep. Trev took the first shift and got her to sleep 6 hours in her new favorite bed, the bean bag chair.
Since Addie has started her fussiness alone time for Trev and I is few and far between. On Monday we celebrated our two year anniversary and my AWESOME friend Katie babysat for us while we went out. I put on high heels and perfume, which never seems to happen anymore. We went to Market Street Grill in Salt Lake and my seafood obsession was satisfied by the amazing lobster tails I ordered. Trev got steak....of course! Then we went to the Gateway Mall and walked around and got some Ben and Jerry's. It felt so weird to both of us all night to be able to hold hands and be a little bit carefree for a couple hours, THANK YOU KATIE (I don't think she even reads this blog but if she did she would know how grateful we were).
People always as, "So do you totally love being a mom?!" And yes of course I do but it is not as sugar coated as I always imagined it to be. While we love our precious little girl more than anything in the world this is definitely by far the hardest, most draining, exhausting, frustrating thing that I have ever experienced in my life. Yes harder than pregnancy and labor, despite what I used to think pre-baby. Sometimes I get frustrated and think I'm not a good mom because I am getting frustrated but then I realize nobody is perfect and if I were the perfect mom Addie wouldn't be trying to teach me patience and everything else because God would know I already have that stuff down. Well God knows that I definitely don't and this is just one of our little trials in life. I'll just keep counting my blessings and praying for patience.
Wow that was long and extremely boring, sorry! If you made it this far your name is Kori Brown and you are sitting at work bored, love ya Kori!
Okay so now the story for those of you who are curious. The summer before my sophomore year of college I was talking with a couple of my friends who mentioned a couple boys who just got back from their missions and were from Ft. Collins. One was taken, he had a girl that waited for him, but his roommate was single AND happened to be the quarterback of the football team in high school. Serious?! Sign me up for some of that! Well wait, before you sign me up for that what in the world does he look like. Yes I was a little bit shallow but looks are really all facebook can offer when you're in the stalking business. Anyways I decided he was GOOD looking but seriously how many relationships begin with a facebook stalk, I was definitely NOT getting my hopes up. After stalking him I also found out he was living in the same apartment complex as me, FATE! One of my girl friends mentioned that she was friends with him and we should all hang out once we got back to school in Provo. So she started talking to him on facebook and set up a time to hang out, come to find out later they weren't really friends as much as knew one other which made the hang out sort of awkward. Well I arrived in Provo late the day we were suppose to hang out, so my first meeting with Trevin turned into him changing my license plates on the new car I bought and the rest was history. Lesson learned, there is good in facebook stalking.
